Full-Blown Pain: My Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, similar to electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around one eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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